In conclusion....

Mr. Euan

As I sit here looking my sleeping little boy I feel so very very blessed.  My blog is titled Imperfectly Pregnant.  I am no longer pregnant and will never be again.  It is time for me to wrap up this blog.  That isn't to say I will never write again, I have really enjoyed it and found it therapeutic.  Another time maybe and of course under a different title.  Thank you to everyone who have read my thoughts, supported and prayed for me along the way.  I have many thoughts running through my head so please let me attempt to organize them into something presentable. 

"It takes a village to raise a child."  I'd heard the quote before and never really thought about it.  Now, I couldn't agree more.  Euan (and myself) had help from week 4 and it has taken so many to make the pregnancy successful.  I am so grateful that I have love and support all around me.  

Pregnancy.  It has been one of the most, if not the most, difficult things I have ever done.  I have learned so much from the experiences of this pregnancy from respect, understanding, compassion, patience and a deep appreciation for my body.  For months I felt tied down (literally and figuratively) to a backpack and a PICC line.  Once I get the green light to exercise I feel compelled to run or bike or do something physically active.  This has never appealed to me before and yet I feel like I have put my body through the ringer for the past few years and it continues to be good to me, I need to be good to it.  It's the only one I have.     

Excitement.  To know I never have to be pregnant again is really exciting.  It is a huge relief.  I feel like I can move forward and focus on being a mom, wife, friend, and just be me, not some sad version of myself walking around like a zombie who has been hit by a semi.   

My health update.  I am working on increasing my energy and appetite.  I haven't been as hungry or excited about food as I had thought or hoped.  I think it will just take some time.  The vomiting and nausea are totally gone.  My blood pressure has its moments but I am hoping it will resolve soon.  My arm is healing from where my PICC line lived, I also thought this would heal quicker but we are making good progress. 

Ms. Fiona

The loves of my life.  Ryan.  I couldn't ask for a better partner in life.  He is phenomenal.  I'd try to explain it better, but if you know him, you know what I mean.  I also need to thank him for giving me two beautiful children.  Fiona (aka Fioney Bear or The Bear).  The only little girl I will ever have.  She is full of joy and happiness and makes my heart melt.  Euan (aka Mr. Euan or The Muffin Man).  The little boy I am getting to know.  Learning his squeaks and sneaking a peak at those dimples every once in a while.  My kids.....just thinking of them makes me cry.   

I can't have a final post without a final thank you to those closest to me who have been there to help, hug, love and do anything else that I've needed since October.  Euan and I wouldn't be here without you, I truly believe that and I will be eternally grateful. 



My Family